I have spent my whole life caring far too much about offending people, worrying if I’m cool enough for them, or asking myself if they are judging me and if they are why, what can I change about myself to get their acceptance.
Ask me anything
I can’t take it anymore. It’s stupid, and it’s not good for my well being. I'm a walking bag of nerves. It has made me an awkward, paranoid, spineless, flighty, nervous wuss. But worse than that, it has made me someone who doesn't stand up for myself, or anything that I believe in. It has made me someone that sits on the fence and not where I cared to stand, for fear of alienating others or myself.
I don't like speaking over people, or shouting out in class in-case people think I am being rude or obnoxious.
I am very reserved, not confident to contribute my ideas or simply speak up during group activities, out of fear of rejection, being laughed at and seen as stupid.
No more. Not today.
This morning I woke up, and thought fuck it. Girl, it is time you started not giving a fuck.
This is a sort of diary to log the consequences and my feelings about the choices and decisions I make on my journey of taking back my self-respect.
we build too many walls and not enough bridges. Isaac Newton
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